Fellow bloggers, do you ever feel like you are "lying" to your blog by not blogging about things that are weighing heavy on your mind? Well, that is how I have felt since September.
I still remember the exact place that I was when I received a shocking text from my good friend, Anna. Anna and I met in college and were roommates for quite a while before we got married. We were born 1 day apart from each other in the same hospital, so we like to say that we were destined to meet again in college! Anna has a very dry sense of humor, which I LOVE and usually I get a big kick out of her witty texts. But not this day. On the day I clearly remember, I received a text that said...
"I am sorry to tell you this over text, but I just can't say it out loud. Morgan has leukemia."
My mind began racing, my blood began to boil, my eyes began to water. I literally could've jumped out of my own skin. How could her little 16 month-old daughter have a disease that I can't even spell? This can't be true! I immediately called her, only to hear her cheery voice answer her voicemail. What do I do? I have to talk to someone! I immediately called our closest mutual friend, Lisa. Voicemail again. Dammit! I called another mutual friend, who I am not as close with but is VERY close to Anna and is Morgan's godmother (Brandee). She answered. Thank God. But I'm panicky crying now and can't speak. It takes a little time, but we finally have a calm conversation about Morgan's condition. It is not good news.
Morgan was diagnosed with AML Leukemia on September 22, 2009. Anna and CJ took Morgie to visit our pediatrician (yes, we also share a pediatrician) because she was cranky and her stomach was looking swollen. By that very same evening, Morgan was diagnosed as a cancer patient. Anna's world flipped upside down in one day.
They have spent 95% of their time since September at Children's Mercy fighting this aggressive disease. I have visited quite a few times and even got "in trouble" for bringing her a singing balloon that drove her parents CRAZY. Morgan loved it though, so I consider it a success.
I still remember our conversation on September 24th, 2009 (my wedding anniversary) where we set the goal for Morgie to be cancer-free by her 2nd birthday (May 29th).
Morgie will be spending her 2nd birthday in heaven.
Here is what Anna posted on Morgan's caring bridge website today.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010 8:20 PM, CDT
Morgan received her angel wings today. She is at peace and no longer has to fight. I already miss her more than I can explain. CJ and I still need your prayers of strength to get through the days and weeks to come.
My heart is saddened and broken for my friend. I can not imagine the pain.
Please hug and hold your babies a little closer in honor of our newest angel.
February 2010
During Morgie's last hospital release, Anna brought her over to meet Maverick.
May 2009
I still remember the exact place that I was when I received a shocking text from my good friend, Anna. Anna and I met in college and were roommates for quite a while before we got married. We were born 1 day apart from each other in the same hospital, so we like to say that we were destined to meet again in college! Anna has a very dry sense of humor, which I LOVE and usually I get a big kick out of her witty texts. But not this day. On the day I clearly remember, I received a text that said...
"I am sorry to tell you this over text, but I just can't say it out loud. Morgan has leukemia."
My mind began racing, my blood began to boil, my eyes began to water. I literally could've jumped out of my own skin. How could her little 16 month-old daughter have a disease that I can't even spell? This can't be true! I immediately called her, only to hear her cheery voice answer her voicemail. What do I do? I have to talk to someone! I immediately called our closest mutual friend, Lisa. Voicemail again. Dammit! I called another mutual friend, who I am not as close with but is VERY close to Anna and is Morgan's godmother (Brandee). She answered. Thank God. But I'm panicky crying now and can't speak. It takes a little time, but we finally have a calm conversation about Morgan's condition. It is not good news.
Morgan was diagnosed with AML Leukemia on September 22, 2009. Anna and CJ took Morgie to visit our pediatrician (yes, we also share a pediatrician) because she was cranky and her stomach was looking swollen. By that very same evening, Morgan was diagnosed as a cancer patient. Anna's world flipped upside down in one day.
They have spent 95% of their time since September at Children's Mercy fighting this aggressive disease. I have visited quite a few times and even got "in trouble" for bringing her a singing balloon that drove her parents CRAZY. Morgan loved it though, so I consider it a success.
I still remember our conversation on September 24th, 2009 (my wedding anniversary) where we set the goal for Morgie to be cancer-free by her 2nd birthday (May 29th).
Morgie will be spending her 2nd birthday in heaven.
Here is what Anna posted on Morgan's caring bridge website today.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010 8:20 PM, CDT
Morgan received her angel wings today. She is at peace and no longer has to fight. I already miss her more than I can explain. CJ and I still need your prayers of strength to get through the days and weeks to come.
My heart is saddened and broken for my friend. I can not imagine the pain.
Please hug and hold your babies a little closer in honor of our newest angel.
February 2010
During Morgie's last hospital release, Anna brought her over to meet Maverick.
May 2009
November 2008
We were bridesmaids in each other's weddings...and threw eachother our baby showers, never dreaming this day would be in our future :(
5 comments:
Oh no, no, no. There is nothing more I hate in this world than cancer. It is so unfair, so intrusive, so unwelcome. I am sad and mad that this happened to your friend and her child. I am so, so sorry-I am just sitting here crying, because I don't know what else to do. Anna and CJ will be in my prayers, everyday for a long, long time.
Your blog was in my "Next blog" option, and for some reason I clicked to see what the next blog was. My heart aches for your friend, her family, all of you, yet, I have to believe that Heaven is an extra blessed place with its newest angel. All will be in my prayers for strength and comfort and love for all to endure.
There are just no words to express the sorrow that I feel for Anna and C.J. today. I remember Anna from K-State, and I can't imagine the tremendous pain they must feel from losing their precious Morgan. We will certainly be praying for them.
I remember Anna from your wedding--my heart goes out to her. Thank you for sharing--she's in my prayers.
I don't know Anna, but I'm crying for her and for parents who don't get to raise their babies and babies who don't get to be raised by their Mommys or Daddys.
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